i am referring to an understanding that some of us were so damaged at the moment of our original cause / inception in creation - that we actually need god's light to enter us for us to be balanced. while i understand that many can understand and be 'good' (in a general sense) without direct connection with god, that is not true for all at this timing. this is obviously a complicated topic and i am defining god in a specific way and not the way that most are defining god presently.