within me i am aware of what has evolved through conscious choice and decision as what i have labelled 'the code of right thinking' - that is to say that decisions are based on 'sound judgment' and upon what has been determined to be 'the right approach' on particular topics. as experience is lived and attracted we need to allow us to be free and open to re-appraise these held codes, choices and thought-forms if we are to evolve and improve the quality of life for us. if we are closed to such changes we remain trapped in cyclical experience and habits which are not representative of our true desire and true will.
for a variety of reasons we may decide 'to put those thoughts on the backburner' or 'put that to the back of my mind' or 'that part of me is perfected now' or other such thoughts that result in the creation of a 'sub-conscious' patterning which we then base further decisions on. we might choose to do this for reasons of 'efficiency' and 'speed' of thought and because we perceive that life is easier if we do so. these choices may be triggered by traumatic situations where we choose to think quickly rather than inclusively and holistically because we have calculated that we do not have enough power to change the circumstances that appear to be controlling our destiny and so we need to compromise in our decision making and creation of our own reality to attempt to avoid a greater catastrophe.
what we often do not realise is that such behaviour is unloving to us and causes unnecessary limitation and suffering for us and can even cause our own death.
for example, the decision and thought-form that 'i cannot avoid being controlled somewhere in life in a way that i do not like, so i should control my feelings about it and not get upset and angry because anger doesn't feel how i want it to feel and just leads to me being rejected by those i love' and any amount of other variations on that and other related themes, is highly unloving to us and is a direct denial of our own free will, emotions, truth, happiness, body, soul, spirit, heart, health and wellbeing. yet in our own 'code of rightness' this may have been settled upon and believed to be 'the lesser of two evils' where the other choice appeared to be less painful than the choice to suppress and deny the true response of the the feelings to the present moment.
when others come to us and challenge our sub-conscious programs and beliefs and where we are now denying that we use these programs and why we are holding them to be true, we may be triggered to attack these others due to our refusal to accept the pain that we have caused us by denying our own emotions and truth. obviously this is a perilous and highly charged and highly imbalanced and unconscious situation for all involved, yet denial is no solution to this at all, unless death is what we desire.
in reversing our denial, we allow the light of love to enter into us, our thinking, our heart and all of us; the feelings and will are free'd to be as they actually are and not the false version that we are forcing them to become.
specific, common blockages and denials which will cause dysfunction and suffering which are necessary to reverse as a matter of priority for well-being, include and are not limited to:
i could continue this list for many paragraphs (and life-times), however, i sense these are sufficient for you to be prompted to find more of your own denials on your own and to, by way of intending through the heart to allow balance and love in place of denial and suppression, begin to heal and think clearly and feel love again - perhaps more than you ever have and more than you ever believed possible.